THE BROWSER WINDOW IS ALWAYS RIGHT!!!

Revelation #6: ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR BROWSER!!!!!

That had to be put in caps for a reason. I learned a valuable lesson today, and it's to always listen to your browser window. If the browser says it's not safe, then dammit, IT'S NOT SAFE!!

Here's the story: While I was going on a shota binge, I went to Google to look up the goodness. I found a couple good websites and those entertained me for a while, but it was a binge; I couldn't stay in one place for long. So, I kept searching and found this website (can't remember the name) on Google, saying it had pictures and doujinshi ( I was praying for a Loveless one) and fanfics and the works. I had to check it out. It'd been dumb for me to pass it up. Well, I clicked on the site and this little window popped up saying that my browser did not trust the website's certificate or something. I had seen the window before (for the SAME DAMN WEBSITE!) but this time I ignored it, cause I wasn't thinking properly, I was thinking shota goodness and possibly yaoi. Well, low and behold, I click yes on the window and when I get to the website, it's this blank page that says "Your computer has just been infected with spyware." I was shocked and scared. Just terrified. So, I quickly shut down my browser window, did a system restore and tried to do a spyware scan, but the thing like stopped working in the middle of the scan...

Now, on the new computer (well, the one upstairs), the internet keeps going on and off....Ah God, I'm a nervous wreck. Why would someone make a site like that? It's stupid (but then again, I was being stupid by actually going to the site)...Urgh. I'm mad. And ashamed....How could someone defile my shota search like that? Why? Why is the world so cruel?

AND WHAT WAS I THINKING?!!? What happened to me? Where'd my brains go? I should of listened...Why! I just don't know. Man, I used to be so safe...And now I'm exposed and hung to dry on the net like that....I hate my odd little obsession with shota...Well, maybe not hate it but hate my actions to get it...I wish I could find a Loveless doujinshi somewhere....CHRIST! I just fell into temptation again...I'll never be helped.

Ah well, what can I do other than blame myself and try to fix the problem. Or ignore the problem and never have my computer-challenged family find out about it. I think I might go the latter route..I've had this problem before, the computer downstairs being all messed up. Last time I ignored the problem (I lost a majority of my files the last time my computer got...what's the word...hacked, infected, attacked) but I got over it. I will survive.

I will survive.

Revelation # 7: I suck at proportions...

On a lighter note, not only do I suck at art, I suck at proportions. I tried to draw something yesterday, and it went downhill. I mean, I made a beautiful head, but when I went to plan out the shoulders, I didn't know what to do...Like, other people make it seem so easy, but when I try to draw something....

Man! *breaks out in cold sweat* I just lost my internet connection. I'm so freakin nervous man. I don't know what to do. Come clean to my folks so my dad can attempt to fix the problem or fix it myself...I don't want BOTH my computers to be messed up..This is crazy man. I don't like this. I need a break...I wish I never went to that site!!

I'm gonna fix the problem myself. I'm gonna go. If you don't see me for a while (longer than a week) ,well Blogger (and other people that might be reading this) I will miss you.

(I might be taking this too seriously, but I'd rather be the judge of that AFTER all this computer drama is settled out...)