1/5/09

I have a major dilemma on my hands! Life is so stressful! Why does it have to be so hard!? I just wish I was a regular kid who doesn't care about their summer plans.

So, I have a choice to make this week. Either I go to Aspire for a second year (the application is due Monday, the 12th) or I do a college program. I'm game for a college program because I think that would be hella aweomse! The only problem is money and that fact that I have to work a certain number of hours each year in order to keep the scholarship I have.

...I have to go now. I'll try to post tomorrow and explain.

1/4/08

Art has been on the brain. There's so many conflicting views on how to start (although EVERYONE says that yous must PRACTICE!). I really hate the idea of copying another artist's work until I can draw that way perfectly and then changing it up so it'd fit my style. I want to be original all the way. I think that's my main problem. I just want to be able to express myself even when I haven't gotten the basics, the basics that ALL artists have to know, down. I just wish I was one of those kids that had been drawing since conception. Jeez.

Then again, I have been drawing for a long time. My problem is that I'm not consistent. I come to a wall and then I give up because it's too hard. And I don't give up gently, I give up hard. For a good year or two hard. Really! If I met myself, I wouldn't think I'd give up so easily. Well, no more complaints and long wasteful rants to you Ness! I'm going to change. I refuse to be old enough to get an account on Y!Gallery and still suck at drawing gay males.

I REFUSE!

Woooow! I have not been on here in like...a while. It's not as bad as my usual hiatus' are. Two months? Almost? Not bad.

I guess this is the best time to say my New Years' Resolutions. I haven't looked at last years...I think I should have done that first...Ah well.

OKAY!

/1/ (BTW, on this email thing about Brazil Nut Fudge at my job, this guy marked his numbers like this and I thought it was cool. So I'm stealing it.) To draw more often. God Ness, I know! You must get tired of me saying this almost every post. I get tired of writing it! But Ness, I know I have talent and vision! I bet I could be a great artist! I just need to delazyfy myself. Big time.

/2/ Um...Study more? I've noticed that school is starting to suck and it's getting harder. To combat this I need to be more prepared. I need to look at the book more than the day before the test. With finals I've gotten better as time has gone on, but in general, I still don't study as much as I should. I know this. I have like mini-seizures before tests because I feel I haven't studied enough. This year will be the year of almost no-procrastination. I won't try to lie to myself. I'm lazy. I know there'll be a test or twenty where I won't study till the night before. As long as I acknowledge I have a problem I can fix it..Right?

/3/ This one just popped up on me as I was washing the dishes: I need to write more. I remembered in elementary and middle school where I would write almost novels (OK, OK, not really, but to a middle schooler, yeah). I barely write now, other than when I RP. I need to put my brain to more use and write those fantastical tales from my younger youth! Also, I've noticed on tests, like the PSAT, my writing scores have gone down! Outrageous! I need to fix that.

/4/ OK, laziness is striking me, so I'm gonna squish everything into this last one. I just want to be less lazy. I know Ness, I say this every other post too, but I'm starting to realize now what damage my laziness has caused. So...I need to stop being so lazy. I've made little leaps and bounds, like washing the dishes everyday (skipping probably two or three) for the past month. I just have to keep the momentum up. Believe me, I'm definitely a fan of inertia. A big fan.