Oh Ness. I don't know how many times I have to say this to make this feeling go away! I mention it at least once a month, or at least once every time I post on here.

It's that whole, "I'm so left out." feeling.

The one I got around that freshman girl Autumn, and the one I generally get around other human beings with productive lives and such. Today I got it when me and some other girls were talking and they were talking about having boyfriends and their ex-boyfriends. I was standing there like, "I have nothing insightful to add to this conversation." And idiot me said it.

Anyway, that whole thing made me sad. It made me feel somehow defective. Of course, I've come to the conclusion that this whole boyfriend phenomenon won't happen to me for a while. At least, until I get some guy friends that I'm actually attracted to. And that's asking for the damn near impossible.

Another thing I noticed, while I'm on this "Ariel sucks" rant, is that I'm still not very comfortable with my height. Everyone else, except for the two dudes there, is shorter than me. Like, MEGA shorter than me. On the other hand, I've noticed that I'm not THAT taller than people. It is a relatively small distance when I think about it. Nonetheless, it feels really weird when everyone else is near the same size and I jut out like..A tall person.