I'm all depressed now.
I went on DeviantArt and saw this page with a Nazi thing behind it, and I commented. I'm terrified of being flamed. I mean, all I said was that the boy was nicely colored and that the Nazi flag was kinda depressing cause they killed off everybody....Still scared.
I don't know, but, that picture just made me choke up. I seem to not be able to come to terms with the fact that there are people in the world that want me dead cause of my skin color. I can't come to terms with the fact that people are out there killing other people just cause they're wearing a different gang color or something. I don't like to think about it. It scares me.
That's probably why I don't like going outside cause of that. Just being afraid of people and what they think. I've been getting better at handling people since I started school and made friends, but it's still hard to think about Neo-Nazi people and stuff. I think about them a lot more then normal. And then skin-heads. Just racist white people terrify me enough to keep me in the house, which is messed up. I don't know.
I'm really depressed now! That makes me a little mad. Like, why would you hate me cause I'm brown? That's stupid. Why would you want to follow a group of people (like, the Nazis) that would probably have killed you anyway? Come on, most of the time Neo-Nazis aren't blonde with blue eyes. They just happen to be white. They just happen to be white, and hate blacks and the Jews.
Another thing, a lot of other races hate black people. Even if only a little. I noticed that recently. Like, no other race is completely cool with us. Even black people in Africa hate each other! The world is so depressing...I'm being so emo today...
Oh, well I made some friends on Myspace! Haha, I'm glad to! Now, my next quest is to find a Hippie forum and make some friends! I have a feeling that if I put something in my blog, it'll happen! Everything I put in here that I've wanted has happened! Yeah! Now, blog with magical powers, find me a hippie forum! HAha! Lol, I'm gonna go looking for one.
Bye magical blog!
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I'm glad you haven't come to terms with neo-nazis. It sucks that there are people in this world who have come to terms with things like that. I don't know why, it just feels like acceptance. I'm sad that you feel afraid to go outside. I have not dealt with racial fear, but I have been afraid of going outside because of men. My mom's been through some stuff and I had a few scary things (nothing too serious) happen and most of the time I cringe and get tense when I walk by a strange man. But I guess what I would tell both of us is that although there is a reason to fear some people, we can't let it control our lives. Easier to say than do, but if we let this messed up world mess us up, then how are we going to change it?
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