Is it completely odd to be jealous of people when they have friends? I mean, like when you go in a chat and you see all these people that know each other and stuff...Makes me sad and I don't even want to chat anymore. And then, like, you go to Myspace and even DA and you see these really popular people...I get jealous and don't even feel like commenting. Just, cause, I think they won't notice little old me...I usually comment on a person who had NO friends just cause...I don't know, I don't got many friends myself...I'm just looking for a group of net buds and stuff they are happy to see me and wonder where the hell I am and are online when I'm online caue i be online at weird times and stuff...I mean, i got online friends ,4 i chat with mostly, but it wouldn't hurt to have more of them...And I know the only way to do that is to like go up to people and start a convo with them, even though you're doing it on the net..God, what I really want is like to be a regular in a room. i used to be when I was 11 and went to the lesbian room (I didn't know there was any other room) but it was easier back then cause not so many people was chatting and stuff..Ahh, I really wanna start like doing RPG's and stuff, but I get all nervous about the pros hating me (it has happened) and stuff...I wanna meet people, but i'm so nervous about it...I don't wanna be nervous all the time...I need to stop that...

(all this spawned cause I got invited to a chat by one of my 4 friends...and im all jealous cause the guy knows everybody and everybody knows everybody...*sigh*)