Tone Deaf

Yes, that's what I am! Tone deaf! I cannot sing! No, I can't. Not at all. Not in the least or the most. I can't sing at all.

I think I should look back at my previous posts and see what possessed me to join theater in the first place. I can't sing, dance, or act. Why did I join? Joining just to join is not a good reason, and hopefully I learn my lesson from this whole experience and never say that again.

UGH! Nick, the other ensemble member, wasn't at practice today so I had to sing that God forsaken willows song all by myself! And boy, was I bad. Nobody else in the cast said anything about my horribleness, but then again they had their own little goodbye things they had to do.

I'm not the only horrible singer in the theater group, but I think I'm the only one that has to sing alone. And really really high. Everyone else sounds remotely good, but me? NO! And then I have to use a microphone! I was kinda hoping I could just sing without it so no one would hear me, but then the director throws the microphone in my face so everyone in West Africa can hear me. Great.

And I know, "You knew you were going to sing so you shouldn't have joined." But I thought I'd be singing in a group and not by my lonesome. Luckily Nick is going to be singing with me, but for two verses I'm all by myself. UGH! I shouldn't have joined. Really, I shouldn't have.

The scary thing is that I might join next year too! I can't resist! I may not like being on stage, but I like going to practices and singing with the group and stuff. I just don't like the fact that I have to sing that song...I sound so bad! That's the problem, I suck at singing that song! By no means am I Mariah Carey, but that stinking song is hard! A part of me wishes I was blessed with vocal talent...But we all can't be blessed with everything.

I had my Aspire interview today. It went ok. It could have gone better, but it was good. I hope I get that job.

I can't wait until theater is over. A lot of people know I can't sing. And if people complain I'll just tell them they should of replaced me.

There's a lot of people in my school that are into theater, but for some reason they never join the school's theater group. WTF? Why won't these people who go on and on about their theater career try out for our theater group? When I ask these people this they always have twenty billion excuses, one of the most common is that they didn't know when the auditions were (yeah right). Or that they didn't like the play (whatever). Or that their parents didn't let them. Sometimes I think they're lying. It always makes me mad, cause our theater group could use some help. But I'm still glad it's almost over. Just two more weeks of this! Two more weeks!