I don't want to go...

Yesterday I wasn't online because...I was sulking (not alot though, for like half an hour). All the people who won the speech competition got these little medal things. I was a little jealous. But that's not the only reason I didn't come online. The other reason was because I didn't really want to.Oddly, I wasn't in the mood.

Ok, tomorrow my mom wants to take me and my little sister (and other family members, I'm not sure who at the moment) to the IX Indoor Amusement Park. I don't think I should have to go into great detail about what the IX Indoor Amusement Park is, because the name gives it away. It's an indoor amusement park. Basically. I don't know if it only comes to Ohio though...

Anyway, I don't wanna go. I know tomorrow I'm going to want to go, but now I don't. I'm just not in the mood to see family members who I hate with a passion. Ok, I don't hate them with a passion, but there's not much love. I definately know that one of my two cousins are going, Robbyn, and we don't really click anymore. She's 15 now, but she's basically a year older than me. My other cousin, Priscilla, is 16 and is a major handful. She's just, crazy. Well, maybe she's just acting like the average black youth of today. I don't know. I do know though, I kinda sorta don't want to see her tomorrow. Talk about awkward silences. We barely talk, if ever. I want to connect and be close with my cousin(s), but it's not going to happen anytime soon. It's the teenage years and those damn hormones.Knowing that, connections AREN'T going to happen anytime soon between me and my cousins.

Plus, my uncle might come. Talk about stuck up. And a loser. He's married and has a kid. The kid's a demon child, but she's young (younger than my little sister) and cute. He's 29 (?) and married a girl who's 18. Which means he had sex with a 16/17 year old to create his kid. They both tried to play it off when the family found out. Whatever. Then, my uncle's...just evil. Like, HE has to make all the decisions and HE has to go somewhere alone and HE has to drive. He's a control freak and annoying. Plus stingy. He NEVER gives my grandma money or my mom, even though she's done thousands of things for him. Bastard.

Ok, I don't want to go tomorrow. I would prefer to stay home and search the net...But the more I think about it, the more I know that I will regret not going if I don't go. So, I'll go. Haha, I'm making this seem like I have a choice. My mom already bought my ticket, so I AM going. Lol.

I'm bored. I did want to start on Roberta's fanfic, but I'm feeling lazy. My back hurts actually...Just a numb pain though, nothing to get worried about.

I'm gonna go and start typing. Or, I might go look at some pictures first, because pictures are my inspiration. I don't know.

See you Sunday (or possibly tomorrow!)

Bye