I'm tired...I'm just really tired. Those kids wore me out, and it's only day two! Ergh......

Hm, today I learned that drama is still not my thing. I think it never will be. Maybe I'll become more, I don't know, just become better and more entertaining as time goes on but right now my career as an actress (as if I ever wanted to be one) ain't looking too good.

Art was OK today. I got inspired to get better at it, to put it simply. Liking art is not enough these days. You can't like it and be interested in it and not be good in it. Those three things (liking art, wanting to do art, and being good at art) should go together. That's how I feel at least. It seems weird to be so into art and then suck at it. I think it seems weird to other people, since I'm the one sucking I can't say it's weird.

I used to be good too! The end of 8th grade and into the summer, there was a transformation. I looked at some of my drawings in January and then those in August and it was like, "Wow, what happened?!" And stuff. I bet if I had kept up with drawing back then I would of be awesome now! But I didn't, and I took a year off (basically, aside from the three drawings I did all school year) and now I have to start from scratch. It's not fun to start from scratch.

Note to self: Don't ever show Mom your art if you expect a compliment. I just did it, and I felt like crying. Never again.

I don't think I suck horribly now. I think I'm, um, bearable. My proportions are just horrible, but I have all summer to get better. And next school year. But more or less all summer, since I have nothing better to do. I should be drawing right now even...